I am composing this post with immense trepidation because people tend to suspect your motivations. Am I writing this to gain popularity? NO! Do I write to advance my career? NO! I write because I love it and it is impacting people’s lives in some amazing ways and it is changing the way people think about ministry. I write to encourage. Sadly, at this moment in my life, the fishbowl gets even smaller, all I do or say comes under scrutiny. In spite of all that, I am putting caution to the wind because the issues are real. The hurt is widespread; the problem has gone unresolved. This series on church workers comes from my heart and my personal ministry pain.
Some of my congregations in the past had a long history of clergy abuses and moral failures which led to a lack of trust in the pastoral office. It made the life of any pastor or his family who followed cold and lonely. There was not a culture of love and support, there was instead distrust and distance. Church work is hard enough without attaching the cloud of generations of past sins and brokenness.
Just recently my previous post on supporting the pastor went viral. It was written to help the church begin to see the role of the pastor and wife differently and honestly all church workers families. What hit me as I watched the numbers tick up at an alarming rate is that there is a deep hurt that the church is probably completely unaware that exists. With that in mind, this is the follow-up. It begins with an open letter to the church.
Let me introduce myself. You may believe you know me because I am in your midst often, but I don’t think you actually know me. I am an individual person. I have a name and an identity apart from my husband, your pastor. It is so easy for me to get lost in his shadow. I have been put into a position, into a role, that I am not gifted at nor have a desire to fulfill. Expectations are placed on me that have grown and been developed by the ghosts of former pastor’s wives. Some who were incredible servants and gifted. These expectations are often a combination of all the things you like about every other woman who has been here before me. To be honest, I feel at times set up to fail. If I tried to be all things to all people, I would only succeed in losing my identity and my sanity. And worst yet, if I pull that off I am only setting up the poor woman who follows me for complete and total failure. It is a no-win situation. Who am I? I am the woman who married the pastor, not the pastor’s wife. I pray that this letter will help you see me as the woman I am, not the woman you think I should be.
A woman married to the pastor.
I wonder how many women struggle with the role of the pastor’s wife. It is an excellent opportunity to serve God and His church, but like the role of the pastor, it also comes at a great personal cost. Pastor’s wives often face unreal expectations. Here is a list of just a few off the top of my head.
Profile of the Perfect Pastor’s wife:
Who is the Pastor’s wife really? Like you, she struggles to balance life while being a good wife, mother and live her calling as a child of God. She gets overwhelmed by the crazy pace of life, its stresses, and heartbreaks. Her house, like yours, gets messed and her children are far from perfect. That imperfection is not a direct reflection of her parenting skills it is a reflection of that fact that we live in a sinful and broken world. She wants the church to see her as a person who needs encouragement, acceptance for who she is, not what you want her to be and at times help. She is not a superwoman, just a woman who is married to the called man of God in that place. I pray this will help you see the woman married to the pastor differently and all church workers and their families more compassionately.
Discussion questions to ponder with your leadership.
Other posts in this series:
Daily meditation on the Holy Bible text.
Poetry, Christian Devotionals, Recipes, Articles, Bible Studies, Thoughts and Prayers
Finding, formulating and solving life's frustrations.
The Christian "movers and shakers" from past centuries have a lot of relevant things to say to us today!
Learning to live, laugh, and lead in Love
Reaching out to the hurting right where you are
Salvaging the Meaningful from the Messy and Mundane
A mix of thoughts
By Using "Praying Through Scripture - A Woman's Journal"